about the author

much like art, i've been writing ever since i was young. all the books i read and shows i watched as a kid inspired me to create my own worlds, and even write fanfic before i knew what fanfic was. it wasn't until around 2016 that i started taking writing seriously, though, but i've kept at it ever since. while most of what i share online is related to fandom, i do have my own original concepts that i would love to publish some day as well!

regardless of whether it be fandom or original, a lot of passion is poured into these works. perhaps i'm not the best writer there is, but i have a story to tell and as much as possible, i want to tell it. just as my favorite stories resonated with me, my wish is to pass those feelings forward. thank you for taking the time to read my works!

the library

latest work

amatorculist

pdf ✧ ao3

hypnosis mic ❘ hifugen ❘ 18+ only ❘ 2,873 words

whatever it is that they have can only continue so long as they don't acknowledge it.



  1. amatorculist 🔞 (pdf ✧ ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ hifugen ❘ 2,873 words

      whatever it is that they have can only continue so long as they don't acknowledge it.

  1. closed books (pdf ✧ ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ hifugen ❘ 1,610 words

      no matter how well hifumi thinks he can read gentaro, there are some things in between the lines he can’t quite decipher.
  1. to turn hatred into flowers (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ hifugen + (queer)platonic fp and mtr ❘ "soulmate" AU ❘ 22,935 words

      soulmates are made, not found — and the proof lies in the mark that arises once that bond is bound. gentaro knows this well, the star that sparkles on his right wrist a symbol of his posse's unbreakable ties. having inherited his brother's role, fling posse is all he needs on their journey ahead.

      but then a yellow rose blooms on his chest.

  1. a world away (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ dice-centric + pre-ichidice ❘ 777 words

      in which dice takes a breather, the dirty dawg's on tv, and he can't help but notice the boy wonder center stage.
  1. accismus 🔞 (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ hifugen ❘ 2,176 words

      life is desire, not meaning — and what gentaro desires isn't exactly his for taking.
  1. eos (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ hifugen + fling poly up to your interpretation ❘ 1,641 words

      on the morning of february fifteenth, the sun greets gentaro with a smile.
  1. for whom the (wedding) bell toll (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ hifugen ❘ 866 words

      "i do" should not feel as heavy as a lie.
  1. full disclosure (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ hifugen ❘ 1,256 words

      being a host sure isn't easy, you know. but at least hifumi has somewhere to go when he's at his limit.
  1. merienda (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ jakudo ❘ 1,058 words

      sometimes love is stored in a natto flavored protein bar.
  1. once bitten, twice shy (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ hifugen ❘ 1,058 words

      winter’s chill is biting, the city’s lights are blinding, and the holidays aren’t so jolly when one has to spend it on their own.

      (or: gentaro’s all alone on christmas eve after having a fight with hifumi. at least, that’s what he thinks.)
  1. taking it up a notch 🔞 (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ hifugen ❘ 7,102 words

      so maybe hifumi and gentaro had learned to overcome their differences, and maybe they'd turned their bitterness into love, and maybe they'd finally gotten their happy ending — but a happy ending wasn't without its baggage to unpack, and boy, did a relationship like theirs have its baggage.

      [an epilogue to the fine line between me and you]
  1. the yumeno agency for peculiar crimes and felonies (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ hifugen ❘ detective AU ❘ 2,266 words

      ⚠ established hifumi/honobono; implied abuse

      in a quaint neighborhood in a bustling city, there's something that gentaro finds strange about the keitoins.
  1. together, we live on (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ jakudo ❘ fantasy AU ❘ 1,412 words

      it'd been years now that doppo had taken the cruel poison of bitter eternity, but he's still not quite used to this demon thing.
  1. urifutatsu (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ gentaro & his brother ❘ 544 words

      just as they are two halves of a whole, a shadow cannot exist without a form to follow.

      (or: gentaro, a hospital bed, and a distorted reflection.)

  1. a call for tomorrow (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ hifugen ❘ 2,124 words

      ⚠ exploration of hifumi's phobia

      it's the same dream he usually has — the same scene, the same voice, the same horrors, too. this time, though, hifumi wakes up in gentaro's apartment.
  1. arm's length (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ jakurai-centric ❘ 529 words

      perhaps he's been carrying this loneliness since the day he was named.
  1. half the man he is (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ hifu(gigolo)gen ❘ 2,015 words

      the suit jacket that Hifumi wore could get him everything he could possibly want — riches, fame, the world; you name it. except, that is, the man he loved.
  1. hypothetically speaking (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ hifugen ❘ 1,225 words

      in which gentaro poses a question, and hifumi answers.
  1. pages dyed in gold (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ hifugen-centric ❘ 5,851 words

      a collection of ficlets centering around hifumi/gentaro and the relationships around them, previously posted on twitter.
  1. planted with love and care (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ jakudo ❘ 2,444 words

      a tiny plant and a shy smile were two of jakurai's greatest gifts, and of course, he would do his best to cherish them.
  1. the fine line between me and you 🔞 (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ hiufgen & one-sided gendice and one-sided (past) hifudo ❘ 52,739 words

      ⚠ dubcon; more detailed warnings in individual chapters

      on a night like any other, yumeno gentaro comes up to him with a secret he shouldn't know and a threat disguised as an offer, and hifumi has no choice but to accept with everything on the line. biting, caustic, and vitriolic, what they have isn't meant to be anything more than a deal that makes use of their bodies — yet soon enough, hifumi finds himself entangled with gentaro in more ways than one.
  1. truth be told (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ hiufgen ❘ 4,557 words

      of course, the last thing gentaro would ever admit was that he actually loved his enemy, his rival — his partner.

      until that was the only thing he could say, that was.

  1. acatalepsy (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ hiufgen ❘ 1,600 words

      slumbering at his side is a grudge buried away and a mistake in the making, and gentaro has to wonder when he'd become foolish enough to let a wolf into his home.

  1. at the break of dawn (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ hiufgen ❘ 1,600 words

      freezing cold up upon the mountain top, gentaro awaited the year’s first dawn with the sun at his side.

  1. behind closed doors (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ hiufgen ❘ 25,541 words ❘ discontinued

      somewhere along the line, hatred turned into affection, tension grew into passion, and enemies became lovers. indeed, it was short of a miracle that they'd defied fate's expectations because neither hifumi nor gentaro had ever meant to fall for one another.

      there was just one thing, however. no one could ever know about them.
  1. bottom's up 🔞 (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ hiufgen ❘ 3,856 words

      ⚠ alcohol

      christmas eve was a time for lovers everywhere to be together and yet, gentaro found himself all alone on this holy night. insist that he was fine all he wanted, his heart triumphed over his head. if the sirens of kabukicho refused to release his beau, then he'd have to take action himself.

      (or: gentaro visits hifumi's club and has a Bad Time™.)
  1. cingulomania (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ hiufgen ❘ 1,179 words

      gentaro’s too much like a phantom — cold to the touch, ready to up and go at any minute. hifumi doesn’t like it one bit.
  1. down, boy (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ hiufgen ❘ 1,146 words

      dealing with hifumi, in gentaro’s opinion, is much like handling a dog — nay, a pup.
  1. enemy mine (ao3)

      2. ⚠ murder and suicide, but also not really ('tis a dream —)

      hypnosis mic ❘ hiufgen ❘ 1,776 words

      there's a fine line between love and hate. they are but two sides of the same coin, after all.
  1. midnight musings (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ hiufgen ❘ 1,022 words

      hifumi stumbles upon some writings not meant for his eyes.
  1. pour it out (ao3)

      2. ⚠ alcohol

      hypnosis mic ❘ hiufgen ❘ 1,222 words

      alcohol can help loosen up a liar’s lips — even if just a little bit.
  1. prove it (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ hiufgen ❘ 884 words

      "i love you" tends to lose its meaning when one tells it to so many others, doesn’t it? surely hifumi can do better than give him sweet nothings, gentaro thinks — or he can have some fun watching him try, at least.
  1. similitude (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ jakudo ❘ 719 words

      jakurai's hands are calloused, blistered, and war-torn. jakurai's hands are no different than doppo's.
  1. sweet nothings (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ hifugen ❘ 1,448 words

      suit jacket on or off, hifumi knows how to love gentaro.
  1. the day i shot down my lover (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ hifugen ❘ fantasy AU ❘ 14,339 words

      ⚠ main character death

      everything began when they met. everything ended as set. within the depths of the forest, underneath the moonlit night, gentaro made his fatal mistake: crossing paths with the man named izanami hifumi. a meeting that promised loss from the very start, such was their unfortunate fate.
  1. the fortune in our misfortune (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ hifugen ❘ fantasy AU ❘ 10,327 words

      out of all the people in the world, izanami hifumi is the last person that gentaro would want to be stranded with. so of course that’s exactly what happens. stuck on land unknown, gentaro and hifumi are forced to work together to make it back home — but perhaps fate has other plans in store for them as well.
  1. yours truly (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ hifugen ❘ 5,075 words

      ⚠ main character death; suicide mention

      yumeno gentaro lies. yumeno gentaro dies. yumeno gentaro haunts his mind.

  1. all this to say (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ hifugen ❘ 3,106 words

      a collection of (mostly) unrelated drabbles/ficlets about hifumi/gentaro
  1. could've, would've, should've (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ hifugen ❘ 4,101 words

      ⚠ main character death

      some lies can't be taken back. gentaro learns this the hard way.
  1. hallowed ground (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ jakudo ❘ 3,230 words

      a collection of (mostly) unrelated drabbles/ficlets about jakurai/doppo
  1. i'll dream another day (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ rosho-centric ❘ 550 words

      rosho runs and runs and runs on forward because looking back is not an option — not if he doesn’t want his resolve to crumble.
  1. in other words (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ hifugen ❘ 5,519 words

      one needn’t say the words "I love you" to mean "I love you." at least, that’s the excuse gentaro gives when it comes to hifumi.

      (or: five times gentaro almost tells hifumi that he loves him and one time that he actually does.)
  1. in the spot (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ hifugen-centric + minor jakudo ❘ 8,800 words

      "you? coming to moi for help? now isn’t that cute~ ♥"

      "believe me, amemura-kun, this is the last thing i want to be doing. but if it’s for the sake of hifumi-kun, i will do what I must."

      "well, don't act like your little hifumin's all sunshine and rainbows! i'm doing this for my gentaro!"

      an icy stare met a steely gaze. a reluctant handshake. a temporary truce.

      (or: fling posse and matenrou spy on gentaro and hifumi’s date)
  1. rumor has it (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ hifugen-centric + minor jakudo ❘ 44,308 words

      thousands of hearts broke that day. with tears shed and cries resounding to the heavens, each grief-stricken woman wondered how this could possibly happen. in the year 20XX of the h. era, matenrou’s mc gigolo and fling posse’s mc phantom were officially in a relationship.

      except they weren’t, actually.
  1. this distance between us (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ jakudo ❘ 11,368 words

      ⚠ implied self-harm

      day by day, doppo learned that jinguji jakurai was more human than god.

  1. brother of mine (ao3)

      2. fire emblem: heroes ❘ veronica-centric ❘ 480 words

      there was no family veronica had left, save for the exiled prince — an older brother. often she wondered what it was like to have a sibling.
  1. fantasization (ao3)

      2. lupinranger vs patranger ❘ toumaya ❘ 855 words

      even a man like touma liked to dream every now and then.
  1. hippocratic oath (ao3)

      2. hypnosis mic ❘ jakudo ❘ 9,604 words

      the fact of the matter was that a relationship between a doctor and a patient was unethical. soner or later, one of them had to speak up about it.

      (or: jakurai and doppo work out their Feelings™.)
  1. like cop, like thief (ao3)

      2. lupinranger vs patranger ❘ gen ❘ role-swap AU ❘ 5,050 words

      be they noble thief or vengeful police officer, each of them has their reason to fight.
  1. long dream (ao3)

      2. joker game ❘ hatajitsu ❘ modern/reincarnation AU ❘ 29,776 words

      ⚠ implied child abuse

      hatano wasn't one to read shoujo manga, but there was something familiar about this mangaka named kunio.
  1. papa doesn't smile anymore (ao3)

      2. joker game ❘ emma & amari ❘ 500 words

      long gone was the papa she'd met, the one who'd taught her love and joy. emma learned how to cope with this fact.
  1. same difference (ao3)

      2. fire emblem: heroes ❘ shigure-centric; laslow/azura family ❘ 1,888 words

      shigure could not — would not — risk getting attached to the versions of his family he met in this world. olivia tries to convince him otherwise.

  1. birds of paradise (ao3)

      2. joker game ❘ amataza ❘ modern/flower shop AU ❘ 11,809 words

      tazaki never found a reason to talk to the shopkeeper with the chestnut brown hair and god-like jawline — that was, until his pigeons attacked the flower display.
  1. cold hands, warm heart (ao3)

      2. joker game ❘ kamimiyo ❘ kamen rider wizard AU ❘ 858 words

      cold he may be, but kaminaga knows miyoshi cares deep on the inside.
  1. disheveled roses (ao3)

      2. joker game ❘ kamimiyo ❘ modern AU ❘ 366 words

      nothing from kaminaga is less than perfect.
  1. insufferable (ao3)

      2. joker game ❘ kamimiyo ❘ modern/middle school AU ❘ 1,109 words

      miyoshi finds many things insufferable, such as the wind, extremely sunny days, and kaminaga.
  1. it's the alcohol talking (ao3)

      2. joker game ❘ kamimiyo ❘ modern AU ❘ 500 words

      ⚠ alcohol

      alcohol turns miyoshi into a completely different person.
  1. kaminaga gets rekt'd (ao3)

      2. joker game ❘ d-family ❘ modern AU ❘ 500 words

      kaminaga learned never to sneak up on hatano again.
  1. look, papa, no hands (ao3)

      2. joker game ❘ hatano & amari; minor amataza + emma ❘ modern AU ❘ 2,517 words

      what better revenge is there than to teach another man's child how to ride a bike?

      (or: hatano teaches emma how to ride a bike. amari is not happy.)
  1. may i have this dance? (ao3)

      2. joker game ❘ hatajitsu ❘ 2,517 words

      dancing wasn't hatano's favorite lesson, but at least his partner was all right.
  1. the meaning of a mother (ao3)

      2. joker game ❘ emma-centric ❘ 995 words

      ever by her side was her papa, and there to guide her along the way were her uncles. but emma had to wonder where a "mother" fit in her life.
  1. the shopping list™ (ao3)

      2. joker game ❘ hatano & amari ❘ modern AU ❘ 419 words

      fukumoto entrusts amari and hatano with a very important task.
  1. sakuma and yuuki's wonderful camping adventure (ao3)

      2. joker game ❘ sakuma & yuuki ❘ modern AU ❘ 634 words

      sakuma puts up with too much for the sake of his job.
  1. wake up call (ao3)

      2. joker game ❘ kamimiyo ❘ 1,281 words

      it was very easy for kaminaga to lose himself in a daydream, especially one as pretty as this.

  1. a day in the life (ao3)

      2. joker game ❘ d-family ❘ modern AU ❘ 7,378 words

      sakuma doesn't know why he hangs out with these guys.

      (alt: sakuma's suffering knows no end.)
  1. babysitting woes (ao3)

      2. joker game ❘ kamimiyo & emma ❘ modern AU ❘ 3,959 words

      it's out of the kindness of his heart and the hope that miyoshi doesn't kill him that kaminaga agrees to watch emma for amari.
  1. becoming a family (ao3)

      2. joker game ❘ amari & emma ❘ 7,378 words

      when amari made his decision, he not only changed his life but emma's as well.
  1. déjà vu (ao3)

      2. joker game ❘ kamimiyo ❘ modern/reincarnation AU ❘ 27,752 words

      four missed encounters between kaminaga and miyoshi and the one time they finally meet (again).
  1. just one bite (ao3)

      2. joker game ❘ kamimiyo + hatajitsu ❘ modern AU ❘ 1,222 words

      one's screw ups can be another one's fortunes (especially if it's free food).
  1. love always (ao3)

      2. joker game ❘ kamimiyo ❘ 3,670 words

      five letters kaminaga wrote to miyoshi and not a single one of them sent.
  1. military men (ao3)

      2. joker game ❘ odagiri & sakuma ❘ 2,916 words

      odagiri saw Sakuma and saw a soldier, an outsider, and himself.
  1. of laughter and kisses (ao3)

      2. joker game ❘ kamimiyo ❘ modern AU ❘ 742 words

      kaminaga laughs too much, but miyoshi knows how to shut him up.
  1. the emma theories (ao3)

      2. joker game ❘ d-family ❘ modern AU ❘ 4,894 words

      amari returned from hawaii with a bag of souvenirs, a dog, and a daughter. everyone tried to understand how.
  1. the picture of perfection (ao3)

      2. joker game ❘ kamimiyo ❘ 630 words

      miyoshi's body, as observed by kaminaga.
  1. the right angle (ao3)

      2. joker game ❘ kamimiyo ❘ 2,007 words

      in which kaminaga prepares for his mission and miyoshi is his muse.
  1. wishful thinking (ao3)

      2. fire emblem fates ❘ shigure-centric; laslow/azura family ❘ 419 words

      that girl was not his sister.
  1. world end's L (ao3)

      2. sound horizon ❘ noël-centric ❘ 1,224 words ❘ hiatus

      ⚠ implied suicide

      how far would his passion for music lead him? the unknown man whose light vanished among the stars. he is the nein.

  1. bow and arrow (ao3)

      2. fire emblem: awakening ❘ lon'qu & noire; lon'qu/tharja family ❘ 365 words

      "i was wondering if you could... teach me how to use a bow and arrow."
  1. comfort (ao3)

      2. sound horizon ❘ noemarie ❘ 920 words

      five missed calls and twenty text messages later, noël still wasn’t answering.
  1. dream girl (ao3)

      2. pokemon ❘ implied classicshipping/burningleafshipping ❘ 1,032 words

      he sees her in his dreams sometimes. a familiar face, yet a strange one indeed.
  1. kendama detective (ao3)

      2. toqger ❘ hikari-centric; gen ❘ detective AU ❘ 794 words ❘ discontinued

      hikari nonomura takes up the case of the kidnapping of the fiancée of the president of the shadow line company and the disappearance of one of its deputies. Hard boiled styled.
  1. revival (ao3)

      2. kamen rider wizard ❘ harukoyo ❘ canon divergence ❘ 1,189 words

      ⚠ yandere-ish haruto

      this wasn't what she wanted.
  1. the lady at the counter (ao3)

      2. pokemon ❘ kalosshipping ❘ 1,304 words ❘ discontinued

      no one cares about the second best.