the nighthawk's star

new year (kind of), new post

posted january 31st, 2024

WOW, HELLO!!! my birthday is the very last day of the year, so i intended to make a post as a nice reflection of 2023 and my hopes for 2024, but. it has been a month JKFSJKF i've been all right, no worries! i've just been super busy since i took a winter class and immediately went into the spring semester orz

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2023 art summary

posted december 17th, 2023

boy howdy. it's been a while, hasn't it HAHA

so as i've mentioned, i went back to school for a career change and this semester has been CRAZY. fortunately, a good crazy -- but unfortunately, it didn't leave me a lot of spare time to work on my creative projects ;w; on the bright side, i was able to finish at least one artsy piece per month, so i'm still able to do my yearly art summary! check it out!

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summer reflections

posted august 18th, 2023

i am... alive!! this week, i finished my summer semester and thank god KJFDSJKFH

so a little about me for those who don't know: i'm currently working on getting into a nursing program! i originally graduated back in 2020 with a BA in psych, but one grad school rejection and one horrid office job later, i decided to bite the bullet and go into nursing like my mom has always pushed me to WHGHGFH. to be clear, this is something i decided to do, and i'll be real, this is something i'm actually very excited about! after a lot of contemplation, i've come to realize this is the best route for me to support myself and my passions. this is a decision i definitely couldn't have made back when i was a teenager and didn't expect to live this long, so it feels good to have arrived at this choice by myself. it's the long route towards my dreams, but every little step is progress and i'm enjoying the journey there!

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2023 art summary

posted december 17th, 2023

boy howdy. it's been a while, hasn't it HAHA

so as i've mentioned, i went back to school for a career change and this semester has been CRAZY. fortunately, a good crazy -- but unfortunately, it didn't leave me a lot of spare time to work on my creative projects ;w; on the bright side, i was able to finish at least one artsy piece per month, so i'm still able to do my yearly art summary! check it out!

My 2023 art summary. January: An illustration of the boy with the gaming console seen between the boy with the bat and the man in the suit in Sound Horizon's 'Ema ni Negai wo!' (Full Edition) cover. He is holding a Nintendo Switch (the left joy-con is purple and has a decal of the moon from Roman around its stick; the right is blue and has the sun from Roman around its stick; and overall, it has yellow accents). The screen features a 'Game Over' stylized in the same font as the cover. The Laurant Shrine, on fire, is in between 'Game' and 'Over.' Himeko lays dead in front of the shrine (her back is turned to the audience). The graphics are pixelized. In the screen's reflection, you see the boy smirking; his glasses glinting. February: An illustration of Yumeno Gentaro and Izanami Hifumi from Hypnosis Mic. It is a dark scene, strife with tension. Hifumi, with the fangs and claws of a wolf, smirks at Gentaro -- who him muzzled and collared with his cord. Hifumi lifts Gentaro up, as if to toy with him. Gentaro, on the other hand, looks down at him unamused. He is pulling down on Hifumi's hair, and pulling his cord as if to tame Hifumi. From Hifumi's chest pocket, his yellow rose has broken and its petals fll to the ground. March: An illustration of Dimitri Blaiddyd from Fire Emblem: Three Houses. It is a recreation of the scene where Byleth finds him post-time skip. The colors are dark and harsh, save for the trickle of light streaming on him. April: An illustration of Yumeno Gentaro from Hypnosis Mic and his twin brother. It is a scene -- or perhaps a dream -- of their youth, the two of them lying on a futon. They hold each other in their arms as they sleep, their hands clasped in each other's and smiles on their faces. The colors here are light and bright, with a sort of hazy touch to the illustration. Then, it fades into the next image... Another illustration of Yumeno Gentaro and his brother, unfortunately grounded in the reality they live in. The scene is set in the hospital Gentaro's brother sleeps in, with Gentaro's brother lying in the hospital bed and Gentaro hunched. His hand is clasped around his brother's, his hand connected to an IV. Gentaro wears a sorrowful expression, fitful even, as he lays asleep at his brother side. An unfortunate reality, indeed. May: An illustration of Izanami Hifumi (left) and Yumeno Gentaro (right) (both from Hypnosis Mic). They're hunched together, forming a heart with their hands. In the middle of the heart is a yellow rose. Hifumi is SO happy about this, a wide grin on his face and his other arm slung around Gentaro's shoulders. Gentaro, on the other hand, is more miffed about this -- however, his cheeks and ears are red from embarrasment. The background is comprised of yellow roses in a lighter shade. July: An illustration of Amateru Mika from Sound Horizon's Ema ni Negai wo! (Full Edition). She holds a book -- the Black Chronicle -- in her hands, and looks down at it with impartial interest. Around her head is a golden halo with 7 stars, and the background is black with a starry pattern overlaid. Light shines from behind her, bathing her in gold. Medetashi, medetashi... August: An illustration of Yumeno Gentaro (Hypnosis Mic) done in pointillism, inspired by his solo 'Yumeno no Kanata.' He stands, looking somewhere far off with his hands outstretched as papers fly out of his hands. The background resembles a night sky, or perhaps the reflection of rain puddles. Behind Gentaro are a bunch of overlapping circles and lines that shine brightly, illuminating him in their light. September: A comic featuring Izanami Hifumi/Yumeno Gentaro (Hypnosis Mic). Page 1. Panel 1: Fades from black into Hifumi's hand laying on the empty side of his bed. Panel 2: Hifumi lifts himself up from the bed, groggily going 'Huh...?' Panel 3: A focus on the empty side of his bed; the speech bubble overlays it, Hifumi saying, 'Gentarocchi?'. Panel 4: Pan out to the full scene of Hifumi sitting in bed and staring at the empty side of his bed. Panel 5: A chibi of Hifumi confused as he continues to stare at the empty side of his bed -- the place where Gentaro should've been, his figure outlined. October: An illustration featuring Kannonzaka Doppo (Hypnosis Mic), which Jinguji Jakurai's presence felt throughout the piece. It's a bust shot of Doppo, his hands clasped in prayer and wrapped around by his lanyard. He wears a solemn expression, his eyes closed -- or rather, his eyes covered by Jakurai's hands. Though Jakurai's face isn't seen, he holds Matenrou's cross in front of Doppo, the chain forming the outline of a muzzle around Doppo's mouth. Behind Doppo is what appears to be Jakurai's hair cascading around him. Light shines from the bottom, casting dark shadows throughout. November: Half of a pair of mirrored illustrations featuring Sakuya Himeko (Sound Horizon). This left side is a close up of Sakuya Himeko's right eye, a somber expression on her face. Her eye is blue, reflecting Iwanaga Himeko attempting to hang herself. Her side is tinted purple. Half of a pair of mirrored illustrations featuring Iwanaga Himeko (Sound Horizon). This right side is a close up of Iwanaga Himeko's left eye, a look of recognition on her face. Her eye is purple, reflecting Sakuya Himeko entering the sea in an attempt to drown herself. December: An illustration featuring Yumeno Gentaro (Hypnosis Mic). He lays on a bed of roses, looking up with hooded eyes and a smirk. However, his attire has been ripped open -- as well as his chest. Inside, his heart is missing. His eyes have no life. His neck is bruised and scratched. He grasps onto a golden rose in his right hand; two broken necklaces in his left. Hovering over him is the shadow of Izanami Hifumi, holding Gentaro's heart in his hand. This hand overlaps Gentaro's hand that's holding Hifumi's rose.The colors are a bold yellow and violet.

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summer reflections

posted august 18th, 2023

i am... alive!! this week, i finished my summer semester and thank god KJFDSJKFH

so a little about me for those who don't know: i'm currently working on getting into a nursing program! i originally graduated back in 2020 with a BA in psych, but one grad school rejection and one horrid office job later, i decided to bite the bullet and go into nursing like my mom has always pushed me to WHGHGFH. to be clear, this is something i decided to do, and i'll be real, this is something i'm actually very excited about! after a lot of contemplation, i've come to realize this is the best route for me to support myself and my passions. this is a decision i definitely couldn't have made back when i was a teenager and didn't expect to live this long, so it feels good to have arrived at this choice by myself. it's the long route towards my dreams, but every little step is progress and i'm enjoying the journey there!

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first post!

posted july 20th, 2023

first blog entry, yay! honestly i'm not too good at keeping up with these kinds of things, but i thought having a blog page would be fun hehe >w<

i kept procrastinating on setting up this website because i was sooo indecisive on how i wanted it to look, but i'm pretty happy with what i have so far! especially since i'm not that great with coding, i think it's pretty solid. of course there's still a lot of things i need to iron out (i mean like i feel this blog page isn't even really efficent as a blog code-wise, so whfghfh), but i'm proud of what i managed to do :D

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black cat theory

new year (kind of), new post

2023 art summary

summer reflections

2023 art summary

summer reflections

first post!